Friday, April 18, 2014


Thermometer-lazy-4 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
After the move I have been going through a lot of changes. Some of the changes have turned everything upside down. That means I have to forget about the trip I have been wanting to take.
I need to stop being lazy it's the only way I can get balance back into my life.
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Monday, March 31, 2014

Into Unknown

I am afraid to explore the unknown territory. Overcoming this fear will not be a simple task after all taking my life into my own hands is quite a challenge and constant family discord is not helping my situation any. So I just turn a blind eye to the betrayal. I prefer illusion to a real world. It's not that I like lying to myself, it's just that it appeals to my romantic nature. What I really need in my life is to take emotional risk, to fulfill my ambitions. I know my family will support me in this.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Terrible Night

I kept waking up almost the entire night (to be honest I have not been sleeping that well lately.) Now I feel tired and I still have a lot of cleaning to do.

I was not sure I will be doing any cleaning today, but decided that I should do simple chores that won't require a lot of energy.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Hi! Finally I Found You!!!

Hi, it's Alexandra! Do you remember me? (No, I don't remember.)

We were friends in childhood (I am sure I never had friends with this name as a child), I lived not far from your house!

You can find me on my page:

P.S. I know I've changed a little, but I still love you! ;-) (I am so glad she still loves me, even though I have no faintest clue of who this person might be.)
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Monday, November 18, 2013


A week ago Susan and mother had gone to look at more homes for rent. One of the homes they looked for was not scheduled visit. At first the owner had agreed to our moving in, then she said no we can't move in because of dogs. Couple of days ago she called and said final yes we can move in. The good news we are moving out on December 1st. The bad, with all this we had failed to give 30 day notice to our manager. Now we have to pay prorate of $774.90. I am not sure how we are going to afford all the expenses. I will call 211 to see what they say.

Update 5:04pm:  211 got to be the most useless number in the world. I gave them my zip and they still gave me wrong information. When I called back to let them know they told me that no one offers this kind of assistance and that I am on my own.

Friday, November 1, 2013

The Spiritual Compass

Emotional Baggage
Emotional Baggage (Photo credit: pyramis)
Where am i in my life right now?

I am healing from old hurts.

Where do I want to be in the next month?

I want to be free from emotional baggage.

Where do I want to be in the next year?

I want to achieve at least five goals that I have set for myself.

Where do I want to be int the next five years?

I want to be well of financially.

Who have I become?

I have become strong. I can solve my own problems.

Who do I want to be?

I want to be independent.

What do I want from my relationships?

I want nurturing and warmth from my relationships.

What do I really want from my career?

I want a career to help me discover my hidden abilities and talents.

What do I want from my spirituality?

I want my spirituality to help me become more feel more passionate about life.

What do I need to do to unlock my creativity?

I need to reconcile with myself.

What can I do to contribute to my community?

I should volunteer.

How can I live in tune with my own interests, principles, and beliefs?

I need to concur my insecurities and fears.

How can I connect with my sacred path?

I need to combine dual parts of my personality.

What is my greatest talent or potential?

I work hard to achieve my goals.

How can I get from here to where I want to be?

I need to be open to opportunities that are achieve in front of me.

What is my first step?

My first step is to have faith in myself.
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